Courage, my heart.
For some reason, those words popped into my brain, a vision of letters somehow engraved into thin air…..
And I thought of every bar necklace, every t-shirt, every coffee mug that stands boldly with declaration of intent.
I wonder….what if we actually held the sign of our truths? What would mine be?
Not all at once, but sometimes and many times…too many times.
I am a vessel of many feelings, fear probably the strongest and most deceptive of all. Oh fear….what death is born from your whispers!
The older I become, the more this truth empowers me, rushing through my veins and carrying me through unpredictable, volatile, HEAVY, storms:
despite all things, I am REDEEMED and living in a yet-to-be-fully-explored FREEDOM, and THIS is the fulfillment of ANY dream, EVERY hope, and where my humanity and eternal JOY collide.
The fear of the unknown?
The devastation of fairy tales ruined?
Rejection and betrayal?
When my marriage is in the desert place, due to our neglect, and as we rebuild, we wait, hand in hand, for the rains? I am still redeemed.
When miscarriage upon miscarriages reveals the betrayal of body to heart? I am still redeemed.
When rejection from family turns spring into winter, chilling your very insides into a frozen congealed mass of tears ready to BREAK out. I am still redeemed.
When anxiety paralyzes and handcuffs and whispers and rages and threatens and tries to re-identify you. I AM STILL REDEEMED.
In the valley of death...I AM STILL REDEEMED.
And this is my and YOUR greatest JOY – the horizon of HOPE waiting …….
THIS is what I believe. And this is what has carried me. THIS has redefined me and EVERY relationship, my marriage, my perspective, my PEACE and has EMPOWERED me to survive with my mental and spirtual health not just intact, but strengthened. Stronger.
The beauty of redemption is that it changes FEAR into PEACE.
I am redeemed. Today, and forever, redeemed. And I seize that as my biggest WIN, my brightest JOY and my driving HOPE.
I am redeemed. Despite all things, redeemed. We are redeemed. Through all things, redeemed!
Thank you, JESUS