Its been 16 weeks since Isa has been born. Life has definitely changed! And, 16 weeks later, I have lost all the baby weight except for 8 very stubborn pounds!!
It’s driving me crazy…My doctor said around 6 months postpartum, my body should let go of those additional lbs. It is kind of driving me crazy, though!
So, for the first time in my life, I have been dealing with some self confidence issues. Obviously, I have never had a “perfect body.” But, I did have hard abs, a strong core, I could keep us with the boys in push ups, and was very in shape. I might not have been super skinny, but I was fit and muscular. For the first time ever, my tummy is like jello.
Its the weirdest feeling ever- I have absolutely no abs thanks to the c-section. It even hurts to run, because my no abs stomach can’t really support my back. But the worst feeling is feeling horrible about my body. I have even been feeling a little embarrassed. I know- I just had a baby. But, its been 16 weeks, and 10 weeks since I have been cleared to exercise.
I just feel so frustrated. I have been eating extremely healthy, especially since I have been exclusively breastfeeding. I have been slowly working up to getting to where I was before, as far as running. Its frustrating that I just can’t go out and start running, doing push ups and sit ups, like I could before. Believe me, I tried, and just ended up with a hurt back. I have to do this slowly, but I am so ready for these last lbs to be gone!!
Anyhow, I am lucky that I have a husband who thinks I am beautiful and the hottest woman on the planet (: I am trying to get rid of this low self confidence…I’m not used to this. I have always been confident of myself and accepted my body for what it was. Why is it so hard to do this now? Ahhhhh!!
Especially since I know that I WILL reach my old weight, and maybe lose more weight after that.
I just keep telling myself that I am more than just a number on the scale. And, that as long as I continue to eat healthy and exercise, I will start feeling better about myself one day.